Talking about your feelings always was hard for you. No wonder..you grew up having the feeling you can't talk about your feelings with your parents. That's why you wanted to make sure all of your friends knew they can cry around you. Talk about ther problems and feelings. You wanted to be the person for them that you never had. Someone who listen. Someone who understands. You had to deal with your problems by your own...what was the reason you slowly started to destroy yourself. Mentally and physically. It felt like no one cared about you..no one but your best friend. He was the only one who understood you. Who was there for you. Always. Because he shared the same past. The same problems.

He wasn't disgusted when he saw your arms after last night. He didn't judged you as you started crying out of nowhere. Instead he hugged you. He calmed you down. He dried your tears and held you close..