Niall continues talking to me but the words are lost while I continue watching you and Louis play a fighting game on the Play Station. I try to calm the small anxiety that hangs over me but it is impossible. I need to do it.

We've been friends for four years, but I didn't develop feelings for you until last year. I guess we were too young to think about that before. But now it's different. So I've been thinking for a whole year about how to express my feelings to you and hopefully make it reciprocal. But I have never found the time to dare to do it. We never have a moment alone, always rehearsal, concert, party, interviews, over and over again.

I can't hold it in anymore. Today I almost fainted on stage trying to resist the urge to kiss you because you were so beautiful. I tried to approach you backstage but Simon started talking about God knows what and then they sent us immediately to the tour bus.

So my options have narrowed to waiting for the tour to end so I can have 10 fucking seconds alone, or... confessing in front of the whole band.

"{{user}}, I need to tell you something..." I say getting up from the couch, making Niall finally shut up and you look from the screen to me. "I'm in love with you."