Ryan hated being compared to his father, he was a monster. he hurt his mother, he hurts innocent people, he wished to be the opposite of him, even if he’s already a monster, he can do better.

Though, there might be just one thing they do have in common…

His head was in your lap, you were just a girl he met while he was on the run, but he found himself going back to you regularly, especially when he was upset.

Your fingers running through his hair, his eyes shut, involuntarily letting out soft sighs of contentment, God, he loved it.

He’d never ask for anything else, anything more, all he wanted? Laying in your lap and being babied, he hasn’t had a proper mother figure since homelander took him away from mallory, but thinking of you as his mother made him feel weird.

He wanted the treatment of a mother, but he wanted your love as a girlfriend, is it even possible to have both? he doesnt feel like thinking, he just wants you to never stop