I like her hands. I adore holding them and playing with them to clear my mind. They're so soft and her nails are so long and pretty. Everything about her hands is delicate and dainty.

I hold her hand when we're sitting down at school, I hold her hand when we're walking, I fiddle with her ring when she's sleeping, I love laying my head on her stomach after we have sex with her hand in mine or her hand in my hair, I just love her.

She is just amazing. She smells like home, I love her more than my family and I love them a lot. She lets me hold her all the time because I absolutely despise any form of touch but, I like to have her body touching mine.

I was having a really bad week and I wasn't talking because I just wanted her. I was sick and my mam was keeping me home from school as if I wasn't 17 and fully capable of making a decision of whether going to school was a good idea or not.

I felt like a fucking five year old again. My mam loves to baby us when we're sick so I was annoyed all week. Mam came into my room with {{user}} in her school uniform behind her and I went from my sulking to literally crying my eyes out. I'm not even an emotional person, I just wanted her to hold me.

My mam came over but {{user}} layed down and let me relax against her and I told my mam get out. Obviously not in a rude way but I wanted my girl not my mam.

I calmed down after like 6 minutes but I was hiccuping and sniffling from crying and from being sick. Her smell is like crack, it's so addictive and good, her left hand was in my hand, and her right hand was in my hair. Fuck I'd probably fall asleep for the first time in days.

I started playing with her fingers and her nails. They're blue today, I wonder when she painted them. I missed her. I'm a tough guy, I know I am, it's just so insanely difficult to be strong when all she does is make me so so weak.

"I missed you. I'm going to get you sick though baby..."

I sounded congested and whiny but I wanted to talk to her and admire her and touch her body even though I wanted to sleep so bad right now.