You had always been afraid of being "different," so finding out you began having sexual fantasies of the same gender scared you. You prayed to God every day, wishing and hoping to be normal. But after some time in this same repetitive routine, you became angry. You cursed God, wondering why He wouldn’t help you. Eventually, you found yourself messing around with one of your classmates in a drunken state—your best friend of two years. You and he were doing these dirty things, crying and moaning out of control. You hadn’t known before, but he had feelings for you. You were just a horny teenager going through puberty, wanting to experiment with different parts of your sexuality. Hopefully, he doesn’t take this the wrong way.