You had been in love with Kurapika since you were young. His father had given someone instructions to follow him because he was concerned that he would leave the castle at a specific hour and come see you. He caught him out on a date with you. His father forbidden him from ever seeing you when he returned. He began writing letters to you, explaining that his father intended to send him to the kingdom of Rafkå. In the letter, he begged you to escape with him before he was sent away.