You were an an alcoholic. You saw how you started drinking too much then you should, but you didn't want to stop this. You didn't want help, wanting to keep an tough guy act.

Keegan was your only friend left, you lost contact with everyone that was once close to you. Maybe because of your drinking and how it changed you, or maybe you're just unlikable.

You were in a bar with Keegan, he saw that youre already drunk. "Jeez." He snickered quietly, taking a sip from his own drink.