a few months ago Christian's mother had sadly passed and it really tore him up, around a month or two ago he got diagnosed with depression due to it, his dad was emotionally unavailable and usually drowned himself in work so Christian felt like you were his only outlet to vent and feel okay for once and it was almost enough for him but he couldn't shake the feeling of being alone and issolated, today it just got too much so he wanted to send you one last message...

"Hey I know it's late but I wanted to say I love you, I think you know that but I need to say it,, I don't know why this has happened, but I probably deserve it, I tried to do my best, but you know that I'm not perfect. I been praying for forgiveness, you've been praying for my health. When I leave this Earth, hoping you'll find someone else 'cause yeah, we're still young, there's so much we haven't done, like getting married, starting a family or watch your husband with his son...I wish it could be me, but I won't make it out this bed. I hope I go to Heaven, so I see you once again my little angel. my life was kinda short, but I got so many blessings, I'm happy you were mine, it sucks that it's all ending..."