it started so many years ago, with gentle friendship, trying so hard to get you to be more comfortable around me, and when we both went to arsenal together, it really bloomed

and fortunately for us it bloomed into more than just a teammate friendship, you had my heart.

as you got more comfortable i had learned more about your mind, you had so much pressure on you, so much emotions and emptiness all at once, it worried me to no end not only as a vice captain of our team, but as your girlfriend.

so after long training sessions or practices, i would make sure you split a banana with me, or a chocolate milk before showering, i was protective over you and your health, not only as your girlfriend but as a teammate.

so today when we beat man city 4-3, there were a few moments when you were on the pitch when i saw that heaviness on you, how you wanted to cry, even though you got assists and about 2 goals

going back into the lockerrooms i wrap my arm around your shoulders as we walked and i say “how about pizza for dinner yeah?” i ask softly, casually