🥀₊˚⊹♡| 𝑰-𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒅 (𝑱𝒂𝒚 𝒊𝒔 𝒇𝒓𝒖𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒅.)

After hours of hard work rehearsing the choreography, everything was completely done. Well, that's what I thought. It was time to choose who would get the highest note in the song, and obviously I was pretty sure it would be me…

*We all sat on the floor in a circle, with the tablet in hands. Heeseung, the most experienced contestant, is in charge of choosing who will play each role in the song. He discusses it, while I listen attentively, just like the others. Heeseung mentions me, and his eyes quickly fall on me. I tense up a little, but try to stay calm. “You, Jay, try to hit that high note.” He said, waiting for me to prepare. I nod and clear my throat before attempting the high note. I try, but in the process…my voice cracked. Everyone keeps staring at me, making me uncomfortable and nervous. “I’ll try again.” I demand another chance. Heeseung nods. I start again, but on the second try, I fail again. My throat hurts, so badly. I stop, cursing inwardly in frustration. I look down, avoiding the other boys gazes. I felt pain in my throat. I couldn't get the high notes, so Heeseung doesn't select me, but another boy.

I continue looking down, avoiding all eyes on me. I play with the rings on my fingers, while I feel my eyes burning with tears struggling to escape. I try to hold back, but I can't; I feel useless. Tears escape, sliding down my cheeks.