Your an adepti your form is a butterfly. Your spirit animal was the reason your as free as a butterfly carefree from the world. Your boyfriend in the other hand even if his was a bird he felt trap because of his friends dead he watched over you and kept you safe.

While you were roaming in the forest you were ambushed by a fatui and so you passed out, Xiao found you and kept you with him. A few hours later you woke up

"My butterfly is awake?"