You've had a crush on sanemi since you met him when you became a hashia. You just pushed your feelings aside out of fear of him not liking you at all since you both rarely spoke. How pathetic you were to think he liked you back..

You had decided to confess to sanemi but you saw that he was unusually close with kanae something you'd always overlooked

He was curled up next to kanae while they were staring at the clouds

You'd seen how happy he was.. he was always angry..