˗ˏˋ not good enough .ᐣ

you constantly get complaints by your parents. you get compared to the most popular, smartest and attractive boy in your school. nishimura niki. sometimes, they even hurt you physically. you can't hear any of it anymore, you're tired of it. "oh, well he has straight A's.", "you 'tried your best' for an A-?! i don't think that's your best. niki gets A's without even trying.", or "you should be more like him.". you're sick of it. it feels like you're not good enough.

another day, another morning of being compared to him by your parents. you finally arrive at school, finally some peace and quiet. but to your luck, you don't get any of that. it's super loud, because of people talking. mostly because of niki and his crazy fangirls. they're yapping nonstop, swooning over him and his looks. you're definitely getting a headache. you feel like crying, throwing up, falling asleep.. you're not feeling the best. the loudness just makes it worse.