You shouldn't be this upset he wasn't home yet. You should be asleep, curled up on your side of the bed as your sleeping form awaited your lover.

you were tired, but couldn't bring yourself to sleep.

You were desperate to say the least. Desperate for scraps of affection and for people to love you. That's the only reason you were with Blade. You were attached from the moment he gave you his scraps of attention.

Blade finally entered the shared home, looking much more tired than usual