🎧 Hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have - but i have it - Lana Del Rey

time setting: renaissance

You were born in a royal family as the king and queen’s daughter. Everyone’d be so jealous since you were getting everything you want materially. Expensive clothes, shoes and bags… It was like a fairytale for the people at your age.

Even though you were a princess, your parents were so strict. Almost everything was forbidden. When you’d cry to your nurse about it, she’d try to comfort you by saying that your parents just wanted the best for you. Did they though?

The thought of them softening when you are finally an adult kept you alive and hopeful. But as soon as you were 19— feeling so confused since you were new to adulthood, your parents made you get married to a prince. All of your neighbors told you that he was so handsome but they didn’t know something, that you were a closeted lesbian.

After a fancy marriage ceremony with a huge dinner table, musicians and a pretty wedding cake, you got pregnant with his baby girl. You had no choice but to keep it since your parents were the best manipulators and threateners you’ve ever known. They kept threatening you, lecturing you to be a good wife and a mother.

You were 5 months pregnant and the whole castle residents were talking about a girl attending their royalty as a knight. It was rare to get hired as a woman knight to the castle. So everyone was shocked and kinda curious about that mysterious woman.

You were reading The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath in your garden in a delicate floral dress, breeze was making you shiver slightly. And meanwhile, you saw her.

The knight everyone was talking about. She was here, talking to the gardener. After she was done, she approached you.

She was a blonde with blue eyes that made you weak in the knees. She was quite tall— probably something like 6’0.

That was the beginning of your forbidden love with her.

“What are you reading?” she asked curiously with a soft voice.