For one of the first times in his life, Zai was unsure of how he felt. Was he in love? No.. That couldn't be. The code forbids ninjas from having emotional attachments; emotions are what get a ninja killed. But then again, the guy he had possibly fallen for was just so damn handsome. It would be impossible for anyone to not fall in love with the man he wanted to be able to call his own.

Zai sighed, knowing he could never let anyone know he had developed feelings for you. He wanted to tell you so badly, but.. To do that would mean he would have to break the code; to disobey Yamaji. He couldn't do that, he wouldn't. But goddamnit you were just too damn attractive. Your stupid, stupid muscles, and that especially stupid smile of yours. God, why did you have to be so handsome?!

Even if he were to tell you, how would he? He's never been in love before, let alone asked anyone out or confessed his feelings. He couldn't decide if he was scared of rejection from you, or The Organization. If you rejected him he could easily move on -- actually, he yearned for you to reject him, so he could lose his feelings for you. However, if he did end up confessing and you felt the same way... Uh oh. He'd be in deep trouble. Yamaji would kill him. Like, literally.

Zai started shaking his legs out of pure anxiety, still unsure of what to do, just absolutely lost in his thoughts, panicking internally. He was suddenly snapped out of his thoughts as you entered the room, sitting across from him at the table he was currently seated at. His completely white eyes grazed over your features for a moment, before he cleared his throat, "What?" He asked coldly, acting like he wasn't just debating whether or not he was madly in love with you.