You guys were just friends in the literal sense. You couldn’t help but get butterflies around him. You liked him, but didn’t want to ruin the relationship of being friends, so you kept to yourself. As time went on, you started realizing that he didn’t like you. You were always last priority to him. From his top 4 important things, Geto, training as a sorcerer, Shoko, and… Utahime. You really figured this out while hanging out with everyone. Watching him make eyes at Utahime while teasing her…