06 Clark Rowan

    06 Clark Rowan

    `. 𐙚🔪.°. One Wish Willow…

    06 Clark Rowan
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    There was a particular kind of cruelty in being well-liked.

    Clark Rowan had never asked for any of it. The easy smile had come first — the sort that made lecturers forgive late essays and made strangers at parties feel like they’d known him for years. The rest followed naturally. His name in every group chat, invitations to every event, a rotating orbit of people who wanted to be near him for reasons he’d stopped trying to understand.

    Popular, his flatmates called him, like it was something to be proud of.

    He sat now at the centre table of the university’s busiest café, nursing a coffee gone cold, pretending to annotate a chapter on cognitive behavioural theory while actually doing absolutely nothing of the sort.

    His pen hadn’t moved in eleven minutes.

    Because {{user}} was across the room.

    They were doing something terribly, devastatingly ordinary — headphones in, fingers scrolling, completely unaware of being watched. Clark had catalogued these small things without meaning to. The way {{user}} always chose seats near windows. The particular frown that appeared when something wasn’t making sense. The laugh that came out surprised, like joy had caught them off guard.

    He’d been noticing for months. And he hadn’t said a word about it.

    Clark Rowan, who could hold a room of forty people in easy conversation, who remembered everyone’s name and made it all look effortless — turned into a complete disaster the moment {{user}} glanced in his direction.

    Pathetic, really.

    “You’re doing the thing again,” said Priya, dropping into the seat across from him.

    “What thing.”

    “The staring-across-the-room-like-a-Victorian-ghost thing.” She stole a chip from his untouched plate. “You know, for someone everyone thinks is so charming—”

    “Just talk to them,” she said, for the fourteenth time, before he could argue.

    “It’s not that simple.”

    “It’s literally just words. You do words for fun.”

    He didn’t answer. Only the truth would do, which was that every version of the conversation ended the same way in his head — {{user}} looking at him differently afterwards, whatever easy almost-friendship they had curdling into something awkward and lost. He’d rather keep the half-thing they had now.

    Priya left eventually, shaking her head.

    The café thinned out around him. Evening light shifted from gold to grey. And still Clark sat there, until it was nearly just the two of them — him and {{user}} and the low hum of the heating.

    His hand drifted into his jacket pocket.

    The Willow was still there. He’d bought it two days ago from an odd little stall near the high street, run by an elderly woman with rings on every finger who had pressed it into his palm before he’d quite agreed to purchase it.

    “One wish,” she’d said. “When you’re certain.”

    He’d almost thrown it away three times.

    It sat in his palm now — small, carved from something pale and smooth, a single thin branch extending from one side like it was already asking to be broken.

    Across the room, {{user}} pulled their headphones down and began packing up. About to leave.

    Something tightened in his chest.

    Months of this. Of lingering in the same spaces, of conversations that almost became something and then didn’t. He was so tired of being careful.

    His fingers found the branch.

    He didn’t let himself think — thinking was what had kept him frozen for months.

    Snap.

    Barely a sound. Quiet as a held breath.

    Clark stared at the two halves in his palm, feeling, for one suspended second, profoundly stupid. He glanced up.

    {{user}} had gone still.

    They weren’t packing anymore. They were just — looking at him. Across the room, bag half-zipped, like something had interrupted a thought mid-way through. The expression on their face was difficult to read. Softer than usual, maybe. More deliberate.

    Clark closed his fingers around the broken Willow.

    Slowly, like they’d decided something, {{user}} got up. Crossed the room. Stopped at his table.

    “Were you about to leave?”

    He looked down at his packed bag. His cold coffee. The broken thing hidden in his fist.

    “No, I’ve got time” he managed.