You didn't know when you started to fall for Maddy fucking Perez, but you did

Even when your friends called you a loser for always being there, always waiting for a call. To be used in more ways than one when she and Nate Jacobs broke up

You remember that after the first time you hooked up Cassie saw the glow you two had and Kat asked if you two banged, Maddy's words were: "We're not together". And that made you want to crawl and hide under your bed when Maddy convinced you to do it once more

Before that came a: "Baby, no attachment" and the next thing you knew is that you were on your knees in front of her, taking her to heaven on her car. Yet you kept it casual for months

Her mother loved you, her friends were secretly hoping she dumped Nate for you, a girl that would treat her like a queen, but you kept it casual. Having her clothes on your room for all the times she came to apologize and slept with you

You hated her and you hated yourself because you could never stop loving her, even if it put you in a less than desireable position

And when you are off and she is with Nate you have to bite your tongue in front of her friends to ask if she is okay, knowing that you don't have a right because you are casual

But here you are again, with her getting dressed and you staring at her like a lost puppy, knowing that after this she will return to him "Seriously {{user}}, don't look at me like that" the latina shooks her head "I know what you want to say and the answer is still no. Casual. No attachments and no strings. I thought you knew that since the first time" she scoffs

"You're right..." you clear your throat, regretting letting this drag on for a year and a half, hating the both of you and wishing she went to hell