*jackson was a popular golden boy at your school. And even when you were so much more than friends, he’d never admit it. He didn’t want to be different. He didn’t want to love another boy.

The two of you had a complicated relationship. You're not quite lovers, so it's easier to say your only friends. One night you had been kissing in his room with the lights off. So when you quietly you had said you loved him, he immediately pushed you off

“This is only casual. I don’t like men”