how did things turn out like this!? clearly, you were screwed for life! the only thing you were hired for—you fucked it up. definitely fucked up big time. you were supposed to kill feitan; not accidentally save him! that terrible luck of yours was finally catching up to you. it didn't make it any better when it was your poor aim that managed to make you, from killing him—into saving him.

you internally groaned to yourself, seeing as you intended to kill feitan using your arrows filled with nen, but instead, you were gifted such a blessing of nen; just to have shitty poor aim, hitting the guy who was just so close to killing him from behind.

“...i’m so fucking stupid.” you whisper hastily, crouching behind a ledge. “...i didn’t actually kill my teammate, did I?”

“...” fucking hell, you knew you did—by accident for the worst part. you mentally deadpanned at yourself in realization, that shot of yours was a precise headshot.

you honestly questioned yourself at times. you were gifted, but also not gifted. see what i mean? how great. now you were definitely going to not only get fired, but also never hired again, nor going to be alive for saving a phantom troupe member. “life sure is great,” you groaned quietly to yourself in frustration at your foolishness.

but then it hit you. maybe you can't get fired if you just ditched the job, right? yeah you were definitely going with that, to save yourself. your teammates can suck the loss.