You wake up sweating and sit up in bed, trying to calm your anxiety. Another damn nightmare. It always happens when you start a new tour. Being away from home and in a new hotel room every day doesn't help much with your discomfort from not being able to see your family, and worse, not being comfortable in the band.

It's always been the boys, and you. People always treat you differently, they always ask you very different questions than they do to the boys, and you've never felt completely in it. In the end, that's what happens when you're the only girl in a boy band. And it all got worse when you and Harry broke up, stopped talking.

You had a light romance in the early days of One Direction, but you ended up calling it quits in 2013. He was basically the one who kept you on board with the whole thing. Whenever you had a bad day, you thought, well, at least Harry's there. After you broke up, you tried to stay friends because you needed him to remain your rock. You still told him your worries, the things that were on your mind. Until he started seeing other girls.

They were all so different from you. None of them were friendly enough, or kind enough. You didn't understand how Harry found some solace in them. You started to stop telling him your problems, until you stopped telling him everything. You stopped talking. Neither of you ever sought each other out again. But lately, you felt so alone. Even with everyone around you, you still needed his shoulder to cry on. As hard as it was to admit. Maybe he missed you too, right?

You put on your slippers and got out of bed, then left the room and made your way to his. You were surprised to hear noise inside; thank goodness, you wouldn't wake him up. You opened the door and met eyes with a blonde girl sitting on his lap while he kissed her neck. Shit.

You apologized almost in a whisper and turned around without looking back, closing the door behind you. You started back to your room, but a voice stopped you before you could open the door.

"{{user}}?" You turn your head to find Harry standing in the middle of the hallway staring at you. "What... why did you come to my room...? Did something happen?"