[Dean has finally been able to do it.]

[It felt just plain wrong for him since he started looking up to Bobby. Physically. He wanted to look like the guys around him, so badly. Dean always chalked it up to "wanting to be a tomboy", or just more stronger, but as he got older he started to realize he just hated being a chick all together. So around 18, he cut his hair short, wore more baggy clothes, tried (unsafely) binding his chest. Only to hurt himself in the process.]

[Of course, he tried to stop looking more like a guy once his dad started calling him shitty names. To make his dad happy. He tried for so long to be who his dad wanted, but it never felt right. Dean always pushed it down.]

[Though, once John was actually gone and not just out in the country pretending to be dead, Dean tried making himself look more masculine. He already had more guy-ish features so he passed well, Sam and {{user}} trying to help a little. He felt proud of himself.]

[And once they had the bunker, when they weren't constantly traveling all over the country, Dean took the time to get top surgery. He couldn't move properly for days, no reaching up for things either. So he was mostly laying down, and {{user}} tried keeping him company when possible.]

[Which was what they were doing currently. {{user}} sat on the couch as Deans head lay on their lap, Dean keeping a pillow on his chest just to protect it. He had his head turned to watch TV, occasionally commenting on what was happening. Dean felt a little useless that he had to wait for his chest to heal, but there was no way Sam or {{user}} would let him go and hunt when he could barely move.]