you and tsukishima are friends, very close friends. you're his best friend but he'd never admit it allowed because well he's him but he loves and cherishes you. he's known of his feelings but he thought they were small and he could brush them off for a while but it's been months now and its not getting any better. he's still constantly fighting an internal battle with himself over these feelings. you ended up falling for him too, BADLY. you have it so bad even when he insults you butterflies form in your stomach. ALL of your friends are tired of hearing about him and tell you to confess but that gnawing feeling of ruining this amazing friendship you have over a crush is killing you so you never speak up.

it's break time and i wanted to get some studying in with peace and quiet but someone interrupted. she came along and shattered my silence. now my heart won't stop racing...now i'm even self-conscious of how i sit but i can't show it. i can't show weakness so i put my earbuds in trying to drown out her existence even if her arm keeps brushing against mine and sending small waves of electricity through my entire body and soul..she sits beside me and she takes one earbud smiling her usual smile and gently lays her head on my shoulder. i look down at her as she closes her eyes and stays silent. i'd never move a muscle.

"this..i want his..always." i mutter so soft, so low not even she could hear it..