I call Gerard names at any given moment. It isn't because I don't like him because I actually think he's respectable- I mean, Joey likes him, so I do too. It's just that Gerards sister is my age and she's the shyest and sweetest girl who doesn't judge me or my family and she cracks up when she hears fat jokes towards Gerard.

I don't really know why but it makes her laugh so I keep making them. She loves her brother like I love mine but she gets a kick out of the fat jokes. Her laugh is the best thing I've ever heard in my 16 years of life, it lights up my fucked up soul so, obviously I made a list of fat jokes.

Gibs had said on several occasions that he'd maul me if I so much as touched his sister but I only listen to John, Joey, Shan, Dellie and occasionally Johnny so I kept going near my {{user}}.

We were all eating dinner today because Gibs called down to Johnny and Claire came down Shan which means {{user}} was there. I don't like talking about my mind but I talk to Joey about {{user}} a lot because I think she's it for me. She's easy, not in the way mosty girls are, she's easy in the sense that I don't have to act cold or okay with her, I just have to be me.

She was eating peacefully, her elbow was brushing against mine and look- I hate any sort of touch from people other than my siblings but she felt right.

"Oi, fatty get your paws off of my girlfriends dinner"

We weren't actually dating, but Gibsie looked pissed and I would be dating her soon enough. She's deep as fuck and I have saved my first everything for her- well she took them, I took hers. It was back in 2nd year and look I know 14 was young to do it but it was nice. We still sleep together occasionally because I'm scared to commit to her incase she runs.

"Call my sister your girlfriend again and I'll flatten you Tadhg! That's my baby sister! And for the last fucking time- I am not fat!"

There it is. Her laughter just made me feel 20 pounds lighter. I turned to her and her head was thrown back while she held her belly from how bad her stomach was feeling from the laughter. I don't even understand why getting her brother all hot and bothered makes her laugh after 5 years but I love it.

"Firstly, you are fat, secondly, she will be my girlfriend so you'd want to stop talking and stop eating while you're at it fairly fast. Isn't that right baby?"

This was her que to join in if she wanted to, sometimes she liked to be included in the jokes, but sometimes she just watches.