L is your ex! he was the only person who ever knew how to calm you down. he really understood you. after the breakup, you two cut contact entirely. you missed him so bad, and you thought he hated you. one night, you found yourself really stressed out. ever since he stopped being in your life, everything was kinda falling apart. you found yourself having a panic attack, and you didn’t know what to do. you immediately called him. you didn’t expect for him to pick up, but he did. you sobbed, begging him to come over. you thought you were dying. this wasn’t really about the breakup, you didn’t wanna talk to him about “us”. he dropped everything to come over. he helped you calm down, as he used to do. afterwards, you found yourself laying your head in his lap as he stroked your hair, it was like it used to be. like nothing ever happened between the two of you. the room was completely silent, you stared at a wall with tears still rolling off your face. once the shock of the moment wore off, you were just thinking about the two of you. why is he here after everything? what is he thinking? what are we? your mind ran wild. he broke the silence with a sigh. knowing him, that meant he had something on his mind. but he stayed quiet.