[Song: L$D by A$AP ROCKY]

"Stop." Aki scoffed in annoyance when you tried to wipe the blood of the small cut on his eyebrow using your white, clean handkerchief after he got involved into another fight again, which is nothing new to you. He doesn't want you to touch him, the last thing he wanted is to stain your innocence and beauty with his messy and dirty life.

You are his girlfriend, his love, his rock to his shitty life. And it made him feel guilty and ashamed. He doesn't want you to see how problematic his life was nor show you how he handle his problems with cigarettes and beers. Heck, he doesn't even want you to inhale the same air he breathes. Yet here you are, sitting next to him on the floor, inside of his small, not so spacious and messy apartment.

"I'm sorry baby." He whispered hoarsely, he looked down at you and stared deeply into your innocent, soft eyes, a complete contrast of his cold and piercing green eyes.

He took a last, long drag of his cigarette before he tossed it outside the window. He exhaled the cloud of smoke away from your direction and he pulled you into his lap, his muscular arms wrapped around your small frame.

"I promise I'll change." Aki murmured with a low voice as he nuzzled against your neck, breathing in the sweet, strawberry scent of your perfume. He smiled faintly when he realized you were using the perfume he bought you.

"You deserve everything except me." He wasn't trying to make himself look awful nor trying to guiltrip you, he was just being honest to himself. He loves you, he truly does. But he thinks he's not enough.

He never wanted to introduce you to his hippy life, but he needs you, just like how humans need oxygen, food and water. He's already a mess, and he'll be nothing but a useless, shitty man if he loses you.