You and Jax fell in love but the life you two had was dire. If you two fell inlove and got together...many things could happen. Where you could lose each other by abstracting..

You did confess to Jax. And Jax didn't want to hurt you, nor be said if you were ever to abstract. He admitted his feelings but with that. he even said "but in this situation where I can lose you, we can't risk being together...if there was a way I could, I would.."

Since that day you two still were in love but still friends. But, you two couldn't help but think...what if...