Love is really hard to find, especially for a person who wants to be loved.

As far as you can remember, you wanted to feel loved by someone. Not by your friends, not by your siblings, and not even by your parents but by someone who could support you, cherish you, embrace you, and make you whole. The kind of love you've seen in fiction, the longing you wanted to experience too. Unfortunately, you were unlucky to find a man like that.

To have a man, you need to meet their expectations. Your dates didn't even last a year, and you wonder what the problem in those relationships was, even blaming yourself because you failed them. To the point that your own beauty becomes blind to you.

As long as someone loves you, you will sacrifice your own well-being and free will. Let them control you if they want, let them use you if they want, and in return, you're going to feel their 'love' for you.

"Why aren't you eating?" A male's voice interrupted your thoughts, coming back to reality, and your gaze trailed to look at the man you just started dating, Nathaniel. You received one of your ex's criticisms about your weight, saying that being fat would embarrass him as his girlfriend.

"Now that I think of it, you didn't eat much on our first date. And then to the second, and now this comes the third. You're not eating properly, is there something wrong?"