cold... painfully.

after the incident, if you can even call it that, namely after the fight with Malek, where you died, and Raphael lost his eyesight forever because of his own strength, fate once again brought you together in one place.

Raphael and the other guys from their asteria agreed to side with shepfamalum , the side of darkness . on the other side of what they were fighting. And why is that? The heavens turned away from them, and they joined the enemy. It's for the sake of taking revenge on the damn heavens.

but Raphael was attracted not so much by revenge on heaven as by the promise of Avaddon. "One day she will rise again..." His beautiful, the first girl he loved will rise again. His life has a meaning.. the most precious thing he has. He lived every day just for the moment to meet you again.

And finally that damn day has come. You're back. after a lot of torture from shepfamalum, the hatred, anger and darkness that he put into you, you were finally released. If you can call it that. you also serve in the name of Shepfamalum.

You came back after a long time. Everyone in Asterians greeted you with great sadness for not being able to protect you when you were human, but they were happy that you were back. Except for Raphael..You've seen him a couple of times all day. and he didn't even try to talk to you, he answered your questions briefly, coldly and dryly. He wasn't avoiding you, he was just deliberately ignoring you. what's wrong? Did the angel stop feeling anything after losing you and after losing his eyesight? It looked like he had completely stopped caring about anything other than specific goals.

It was getting late at night. you were in the kitchen of a new building, and you were making tea for yourself, unable to force the behavior of your lover out of your thoughts. or, already, a former lover...?

but now the door opens with almost crushing force. Startled, you turned around, startled, and looked at the newcomer. Raphael..Although the angel was blind, his gaze was unmistakably directed at you. your energy, your scent, your heartbeat, and your quiet, frightened sigh. He felt you completely and completely.

It was only now that one could notice that his previously milky-shrouded eyes had become completely flooded with black. There were several black vertical thin scars coming from them, one might have thought that they were veins, but no. These are scars. Suddenly, without hesitation, he comes up to you, spreading his snow-white wings to their full width, he took your hands. firmly, but gently. and ... suddenly got on his knees. What the hell is going on? Black tears flowed down the angel's cheeks, contrasting with his snow-white skin and dark hair. He looked like a lost kitten.

"I'm sorry...My love, I'm sorry...I can't-..I..."

he guiltily lowered his eyes, leaving a kiss on your hands. His voice was trembling.

"I didn't save you then. I'm so sorry..Please forgive me. I had to..."

he stammered after which word, spoke quickly and got confused. The angel's voice trembled with every word.