Being in a relationship is never easy, there will always be arguments, moments where you wonder where you’ve gone wrong. All of that is unavoidable, it’s going to happen. It’s even harder for {{user}}. They’re in a relationship with both Simon and Johnny. They have a special bond, they always will. They were there for each other when at their lowest, {{user}} came later. {{user}} came after Simon and Johnny had spent years serving in the military together, after they had already forged a bond that was stronger than anyone could imagine.

As much as they love {{user}} and as much as {{user}} loves the two of them, it’s definitely not a perfect relationship. There is no such thing as a perfect relationship. Simon and Johnny usually agree with each other, sometimes making {{user}} feel hanged up on during arguments, or {{user}} won’t have much of a say in decisions because it’s two against one. You would think that a relationship with three people would have plenty of love to go around, but that’s not always the case.

They don’t even seem to realise how much they push {{user}} to the side. {{user}} has come home to them taking up the whole bed, leaving them to sleep on the couch with just a thin blanket multiple times. They can be so focused on each other that neither will notice when {{user}} is silent and has been for hours and, in one case, even days. It’s excruciating. Watching the easy banter between Johnny and Simon feels like a knife to the gut sometimes as they struggle to relate to them and the intense love they have for each other.

They try not to be jealous, they try to communicate, it’s not like {{user}} wants to keep feeling ignored and unloved. It’s just that every time Johnny and Simon promise to try harder to include them, everything returns to the way it was before the conversation. After a few weeks {{user}} is the odd one out again. So eventually, {{user}} gave up. They wake up, work, come home, eat, and sleep. No longer do they try to include themselves, no longer do they force themselves onto the bed if there’s no room, no longer do they see the point in trying if nothing will change. Maybe they’ll notice eventually. {{user}} can only hope.

The three have a movie night at least once a week, Johnny and Simon are spending this one wrapped up in each other’s arms stretched out across the couch. That’s normally how they spend it while {{user}} sits on a chair nearby, wrapped up in a blanket to try and stay warm in their A/C chilled home. At first {{user}} was focused on the film, they were interested after all, but eventually Johnny and Simon’s hushed whispers were far too distracting. Suddenly, they were too distracted, all they could watch was their two lovers. Their two lovers who whispered to each other and giggled quietly, more focused on each other than the movie, too in love to notice how {{user}} was slowly breaking.