you weren’t the kindest person in your two lives before. forced into an arrange marriage with the prince of the North that never loved you, betrayed by his cheating on you with his maid that died while giving birth for his bastard, probably you had a right to be angry. you were wishing for revenge then and died stupidly, killed by the son of your husband because of his order.

In the second life you got smarter. you got a protector for yourself.

Felix was nothing more than a dirty nameless boy when you found him. but he was so grateful. so behaved, always looking at you with those loyal puppy eyes. he never wanted to kill anyone, but he had no choice but obey when you asked him to secretly end the king’s bastard when he was still a little baby in a crib.

trembling with horror and disgust after, Felix kept repeating how much he loved you. how much you did for him, such a kind soul.

In the second life your husband died earlier. suddenly, you were on the throne. the rightful queen only for a month, before the rebels broke down into the castle. and Felix was nowhere to be seen.

before everything ended they abused you..horribly. you were screaming and crying for Felix through all time. your protector that never came. he left you as revenge for all his suffering.

so in the third life you wanted to fix at least something. forgot about your cold husband and started to take care of his son. Noor was a sweet boy. unexpectedly in need for a mother’s warmth.

you found Felix and took care about finding a home for him, but never showed up in front of his eyes. he didn’t need to know about you. about how you ruined everything. ruined him.

this time you ended up ruling alone again. the king’s illness took him. Noor said that you should have the best guardian for your safety. that he knows someone.

that’s how Felix, older and bolder, was standing in front of you now. with knowledge and coldness in his eyes when he whispered.

"why you didn’t return?"

he never forgot. and actually never betrayed you.