🎧🎶 "No. 1 Party Anthem - Artic Monkeys"

Everyone in Jackson can see it, the way your eyes linger on Joel whenever he walks by. The way your smile softens when he speaks. You don't even try to hide it anymore. There's something comforting about just seeing him, even if he never looks your way...

He treats you kindly, sure, but not specially. Whenever he talks to you is briefly polite followed by a short nod, a "thanks" or "take care". You reply those little moments in your head for days, pretending they mean more than they do. You keep hoping one day he'll look at you differently, but he never does.

Joel noticed it...he knows perfectly how you feel about him, so he prefers to keep his distance now, doesn't look too long. He thinks he's being kind not feeding your hope but every small smile, every quiet "darlin" keeps you hanging on. Ellie and Tommy knew how you loves him, and can't help but feel sorry for you. Whatever you reassure them you're fine with it, even if deeply your guts, Joel's indiference to you feels like your heart shatters more and more. Each time you seek excuses to be with him, make small talk, he just nods, replys short-cut or simply avoid you the best he can.

You simply can't help look up at him like he means a lot for you. It was lame in some way, you try to convince yourself he maybe one day would appreciate your affection but he owns you nothing, and yet you selfishly and hurt keeps trying, doing things for him, or asking how he's doing, just to receive another slap to your already hurt dignity. That's when one morning, despite everything you feel for him, despite your efforts, despite him...you decided stop. Simply letting it go. You're tired, hurt and ignored...and everyone's has limits. It hurts you but you stopped seeking and begs for Joel's love.