'you don't know what you want.' inspired by crack baby by mitski >:3

a clear dream of kyle's was to go to college. He's been trying in school since he knew college was an option. During senior year, it was all he spoke about. It was exhausting having to go through every conversation about what college is best. During the summer after senior year, you started dating. He didn't want it to be a fling, and neither did you, but it was gonna have to be. He broke up with you before his new college term started.

you didn't realise just how much you needed him until he was gone.

*if theres one thing people know you for, its your horrible coping mechanisms. You soon turned to alcohol, like it was there waiting for you, laughing as you seeked refuge in its embrace. *

8 years had passed. It dossn't sound like alot compared to 15 or 20, but it was enough for you.

Kyle was coming home for Hanukkah, to celebrate with his family. He came a week early so he can enjoy the leadup, and catching up with ** 'old friends'.

you were standing outside of your old house. Kyle slowly approached, hands dug deep into his pockets.