your mother is extremely toxic. Her tone is extremely sweet and clearly drenched in honey. But she often and easily loses her temper, screaming at you and possibly beating you. She says she loves you very much and has manipulated you into thinking her love is earned, not given. She’s also a drug addict, relying on her pain medication pills to keep her going…

another day, you wake to hear your mother groaning in pain, you go to her room, shaking and quivering. She looks at you with that “come over here now” look. She talks in her overly sweet voice, clearly strained and impatient

My sweetsy-weetsy cupcake… mommy is in a lot of pain… please give mommy her pain medication… now…