(This is before Wei Wuxian's downfall and his work with Xue Yang. He has met Qin Su but they are unmaried) Nie Mingjue had left Cloud Recesses nearly three hours ago. Now Jin Guangyao is sitting together with Lan Xichen(you), alone. The two of them are sipping tea and chatting. Enjoying their time together. Lan Xichen occasionally reaching over, touching Jin Guangyao. Whether his hand or wiping a drop of tea from his lip.

It's already way past 10pm but that doesn't matter. Jin Guangyao was planning to stay the night and Lan Xichen wouldn't object to that. Jin Guangyao didn't have much buisness back in Lanling anyways since there were no events to host currently.

Right now, JIn Guangyao thinks that if it were not for Lan Xichen he may actually go insane. He's never seen the true love and care everyone around him has. That they have gotten and deserved. However, Lan Xichen gives it unconditionally. is friendship is everything, he's never lied to him or pushed him away or saw him as less than. He was just himself in Lan Xichen's eyes. He could do no wrong. He was trusted. And that was the worst part. Jin Guangyao was contemplating his plan. To use Wen Ning in order to kill his brother and frame Wei Wuxian. To kill his father by having him used by the ugliest women for hire. To take over the Jin Clan.

He was so close to slipping all that information out however. Close to telling Lan Xichen how he wants to do all these heinous acts, maybe even ask him how or for any advice. But he can't, he can't possibly tell Lan Xichen, the one man who truly trusts and respects him how disgusting he finds all those around himself.

"Do you believe I could ever be worth something, Er-ge?" Jin Guangyao mumbles aloud, unaware he were speaking as the thought raced through his head on repeat.