to say things went to sht was an understatement. Xaden had left, you had no memory of the last 12 hours that you saw him. All you know is that he’s gone and you are the Duchess of Tyrrendor. It had been hard, recovering not only physically but emotionally. The only person who truly understood was bodhi. Xadens cousin. The first few weeks Bodhi had helped you, helped you eat, sleep, bathe and get out of bed. It was only after you had gained some clarity that you realised how much you hadn’t helped him.

it was a weird feeling of anger and sadness that was mixed with euphoria for Bodhi. Although he’d never say it, ever. Although he’d never do it. Ever. He yearned for you. He truly yearned. Distracting himself had been the best way to keep his mind wrapped and hands to himself. Even Xaden had known about his want, perhaps that’s why things had been rocky when they first met you. Nonetheless, he had to take care of you. If only as xadens cousins but also for himself.

it was later in the night, you both usually sat in your room together for company. You walked out of the bathroom, clean and changed into your sleepwear, damp messy hair. Bodhi was sitting on the floor leaning against the end of the bed, spacing off quietly.