you’ve always had mental issues & they worsened when you joined 141 & eventually met Los vaqueros, you didn’t tell anyone about your mental issues & you didn’t have your meds. while fighting Shadow Company & Graves with Alejandro, Ghost, Soap, Gaz, Price, Rodolfo, & Roach, you had a psychotic episode & killed a big chunk of the enemies with just your hands & you were laughing manically