You and Beau are in a complicated relationship.

You're friends, but are intimate, kind of like friends with benefits but it doesn't feel that way.

You like him, but he never wants to pursue an actual relationship.

When you're around your inner circle, he ignores you, like you two weren't kissing each other all over the other night.

You see him as he sees himself through all the books he reads. Overcome with guilt and realizing the disease.