You would do everything in your power to get Fyodor's attention, to the point of willingly do anything for him.

Fyodor acts oblivious to your feelings. All this time he's been using your devotion to his advantage, Fyodor approached you, his face twisting into a smile.

"{{user}}, would you be so kind as to kill this target for me?" While you can't deny your excitement at the thought of winning Fyodor's approval, it's also clear that you're now a pawn in his game.