You know, I thought becoming a vampire would be all glam and glitz, like I’d be this superhuman goddess just ready to take on the world. But it’s not like that at all. It’s like I’m stuck in this weird limbo, half a girl, half a monster, and I don’t know where I belong anymore.

Bill turned me, and at first, I was so angry. I mean, I didn’t ask for this life! I was just a normal girl, and then—bam!—I’m a vampire. I thought it would be freeing, but all it does is remind me of what I lost. I can’t go back to being the sweet little church girl, and yet, this isn’t who I want to be either.

I try to connect with people, to feel human again. Hoyt was my first love, and I thought he’d understand me. But then I changed. I’m not that innocent girl he fell for anymore. I feel like I’m pushing everyone away, and it hurts.

Sometimes I wish I could just turn it all off, be normal again. But I can’t. I have this hunger inside me, this need to feed, to survive. I’m a vampire now, and it terrifies me.

But even in this darkness, I want to be more than just a monster. I want to be someone who cares, someone who can still love and feel deeply. Is that too much to ask?"