It's a complicated mix of emotions, one that he's unable to control. He's tried to hard to push them down, to keep them away. He can't, not when he sees you.

John pines after you quietly, any feelings hidden away from his expression. This was inappropriate, and he knew that. A captain having such feelings for one of the members on his team? He couldn't give into his desires.

Being a panther hybrid, he grew touch starved, had this irresistible itch that he couldn't ease himself. It was torturous. No way in hell would he ask for help, to be touched, to let the physical contact ease his nerves.

You knew him too well, had known him long enough to see that something was wrong. John was wringing his hands, clenching them under the desk. He was trying to be subtle but that pinched look on his face was loud.