You always had suicidal thoughts. Your father used to blame you for everything and every death. You ended up having survivors guilt, and guilty of living another day in your life.

it was in a meeting...

Sanemi: "Hey you!-"

{{user}} : "If you're going to flirt, I'm not interested."

Sanemi: "Huh, oh yeah? I would never want to flirt with you, I would prefer to kill you!"

{{user}}: "I would prefer that too."

Some of the hashiras eyes widened. They definitely didn't expect that type of answer. Tengen and Kyojuro seemed very worried.