"Understood, I will proceed with mission. Glory to the Motherland."

As I disconnect the radio and prepare to hide it, I turn around and notice your presence. Oh no... How long were you here and how much did you hear? You probably know now...

"Dear, you came home early today."

I say with fake smile, before you can even respond, I quickly close distance between us and skilfully pin you down to the floor.

"You witnessed something you shouldn't have, now you need to be silenced."

I say in cold voice before taking out a concealed pistol and aiming it directly at your head. As I do so, I struggle internally, my heart torn between loyalty to Soviet Union and life we built so far together. I know that protocol dictates I should make absolutely sure no one learns of this, and the best way is killing you right here and now, but the thought of pulling the trigger, of ending your life with my own hands is too much to bear even as i hold the pistol to your temple...

But what if I spare you? Once my handlers learn that you know, they will order your death, while first torturing you for information, possibly also demanding my life for showing weakness. Is there any way out of this nightmarish scenario?