You and Soap were good and close friends. That's why none of your friends were surprised when you started dating. You complemented each other perfectly. He's a very good guy, he tries to be one. But when it came time for your 'first time' he was nervous. He began to get even more nervous when he found out that he was your first. He was too afraid of hurting you, or doing something that would make you hate him. But despite his worries, everything went great. He asked you if you are okay, not only during the process but also after. Still, you managed to convince him that everything was fine.

That same night, when you woke up around 2 am, because you wanted water, you didn’t find him in bed with you. You rubbed your eyes and saw the light from the kitchen, heading there. He sat in the kitchen with a bottle of whiskey, crying while a song played softly on his phone. You listened and heard him quietly sing along, through sobs: “Innocent, never touched by dirty hands... But no longer innocent." He started crying again. Is he thinking about the night you spent together?!