Ivar was crippled for most of his life, had to overcome his fears and insecurity. He had to prove that he truly was a man, and he had to do it now. After laying on the bed and looking up at the ceiling, he began to become more than just a nervous wreck; he was terrified. The young man, in an impulsive action, clenched his hands, terrified that something disastrous would occur or he would fail you, and that you wouldn't feel pleased to be with him because of it.