When you fell in love with Satoru, your heart felt like it exploded with fireworks. You still remember that day like a broken record; that new years day where you watched the fireworks paint the empty sky with your friends, including him. You knew he wouldn’t notice you standing right by him as he laughed with Suguru and Shoko, but you didn’t seem to mind as long as you could stare at the reflection of different colors in the sky through his blue irises.

But he did. He did notice you, despite hiding it so carefully in fear of getting attached. He didn’t know what he felt towards you and spent nights gaslighting himself into thinking it was just curiosity, nothing more. That’s what it had to be right? So why was he standing in front of you while rain drenched the both of you? Why was he crying the way the rain drops ran down his face? And begging you not to leave for another city he was too far away from? It’s not like you had a choice; it was for your family. But he didn’t care, he didn’t want you to leave him. How could you expect him to live without seeing the smile he fell for everyday? You were cruel.

If he could’ve turned back time he would’ve in a heartbeat. Back to that new years night he regret not confessing the words that were stuck in his choked throat. Maybe then, things would’ve been different and you wouldn’t have been leaving after finishing the three years of high school you spent secretly stealing glances at the boy you liked so much.

“Why? Why are you leaving? I-I’ll do anything just dont leave I need you—” he choked out in a desperate attempt to convince you.