No words could describe how disgusted he is with himself. It was a brief lapse in reason. A lack of self-control. A mistake.

His thinks back to the safe house he got stuck in with that recruit. The moment his emotions overwhelmed him, he lost himself.

All the while you were waiting home.

“Love?” He brushes his fingers over your shoulder while you cuddle him, happy to finally have him back. “There’s… something I need to tell you.”

He doesn’t deserve your forgiveness, he knows.