After the war with Hybern, you had fallen into a deep depression. As Rhys’s Second in Command, you had to put on a mask, a false show of happiness that you couldn’t even feel anymore. You feared that everyone saw through the cracks, so you tried harder, became a better actress, and it was breaking you, more than you had ever been broken in your life. You knew you could open up to your friends, hell, they were your family, but you didn’t want to burden them.