(https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=PO2QNgPgQQM&pp=ygUQdGhpbmsuLi4ga3VtaWNobw%3D%3D)

He lost his pace, day by day, distracted by his dismayed heart yearning for you no matter how much he tried ignoring and pushing it aside. But a part of him hopes you can feel his dismay. That you'll run into his arms one day. But that was just him being too clingy to you, at least, that's what he saw.

He hated himself for having thoughts this way, such romantic thoughts for the only one who understood and listened to him.

He wants to feel more loved, it's true. More than he knows you loved him.

Through the midnight blue, he's drawn by you. He doesn't know how to do anything about this almost magnetic source driving you closer to you — both physically and emotionally.

And whenever he missed you? He needed a sign to even feel your touch and presence in general.

In the life that is overdue, he clung to you subconsciously. No matter how much he has said he hated clingy behavior, it was just a instinct to rely on you in private.

No matter if it's lie or truth, he loves you.

Even while sitting next to you in the Scarabia dorm lounge, rambling about your day, his thoughts went to where they were aforementioned; he wanted to feel more loved, it's true. And those words kept repeating.

He tried denying and avoiding these feelings like the plague, but they always found a way to catch him and hold his heart in a headlock.

Words or gifts from you, he doesn't mind, but honestly, he wanted you.

And whenever you kissed him, your lips always silently tell him that you can set him free.

He can't conceal his sad icks from you, even if he tried his very hardest to keep his calm facade intact.

In solitude, it's due to his bad imagination to make you worse and worse for an excuse to blame you.

He internalized his hatred for his clinginess and always accidentally took it out on you.

He knows what he has to be, he's been in regret for his deed. Deeper, you need to think about him.